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I am almost 30 years old. I have been out of high school for over 10 years. Yet, there are some days where it feels like I’m still in the old “clique”.

I really have a hard time understanding the “ownership” of friends complex some people have. You know the type….”well she/he was my friend first, so don’t forget it” mentality. I feel like I’m on the edge of this situation and I want to run away as fast as possible. I won’t go into details, because quite honestly, it’s ridiculous. I just feel like venting about it.

Both Jeff and I have been up against this before with different pockets of friends and it more or less ruined a friendship for Jeff. I’m on the outer ring this time, but it’s never going to get any better. It’s very disappointing to me.

Most people who know me are aware of my devotion to my friends. They are like my family – no – they are my family. I think I feel this way because of the history with “friendships” in my past…..or lack of. I’ve had two friends in my life who I thought were people I would be friends with forever. Unfortunately I misjudged their character and was - for lack of a better word…”$hit” on. I vowed I would never have a friendship that was “iffy” again. That is why my girlfriends are so important to me and I would do anything for them or their families. I value my friendships dearly and while I know heads will butt, I would never intentionally do anything to jeopardize the relationships I have worked so hard to build.

I just wish everyone had this philosophy. L